My desire

*I am really into this song !! :D One night in Bangkok !! *


*My desire*

Thesedays my steady bf David is always next to me, and I am so happy about it.
He often smokes so I sometimes admire for it :D He talks to me " Stop doing this ,it doesn't fit for girls " but still smoking attracts me, I think I am still a child dreaming a Bad Girl... no, not only such a reason. What makes me try to smoke?? cuz I think myself Sae is not so important anymore.


When I was a real child,,," I want to live until age 100 !! I want to get a Novel prise !! I want to change this dirty country !!" but I never think so anymore.
I've experienced so many things though I am still 20.
I don't treat myself carefully anymore. *sigh*


But I've got real friends all over the world, for them, I cannot die right now.
Until I meet all of them, I cannot die.

Say good bye to 2010 !

*with my friends at Meiji University ^^*

Hey everyone,how have you been lately??
It's been while since I wrote an article last time... it's been almost 3months I wrote last... right? XDD

Soon we all will have to say good bye to 2010.
Lots of things happened in this year, I met so many good and bad people... meeting someone, and crushed on another ones... some people came to me , and others broke up with me ut it's okay ,it's all over.




A few weeks ago, I realllllyyy started to miss my old foreign friends, and decided to write Christmas(or New Year's) cards for them. Oh how many post cards did I write for them? :D My oldest foreign friend... I met her when I was just 15. She saved me from suicide, I thank to her always for helping me from the hell...


I want to make my dear 2011 a great one.
I never hurt anyone, never hurt...

I try to take care of my old friends.I never hurt them again... again...



I try not to hurt myself Sae anymore !!!
Happy 2011 for everyone in this world !!!